So I thought that maybe we could survive 2008 without any deaths...I was wrong.

I found out last night that my aunt in Puerto Rico died. She has been sick the past couple of months, had three strokes, a heart attack, and had fibroid tumors in her uterus. Well shes been in the hospital, unable to move or talk, her BP dropped last night, and she went. They found cancer once she passed.

God. I can't believe it.

R.I.P Tia Linda.

I know now that you're in a better place without any pain and suffering, and you're watching us and keeping us save from above. You'll always be in our hearts. I love you so much.

Another year has come and gone. This year has brought me so much, both good and bad. I have so many wonderful memories from this year that I will cherish for life, and experiences that I thought I would never be able to do. The bad moments to my life, have really impacted me, but I've learned from them, they have made me stronger, and I grew as a person because of them. Reality has hit me, 2008 is coming which means I am almost a senior. I have one more year, and then I'm off on my own.



Goodbye 2007...

...and hello 2008. I'm ready, bring it on. :D

So I made an old lady laugh yesterday. It was just the cutest thing to see. She was on her scooter wheelchair thingy in Walmart and she was listening to what I was saying and just started laughing, and was smiling at my mom and I. It made me feel good in a way., that I could bring a smile to her face. :)

So I feel like a glob of nothing today, if that even makes sense. Cramps like you wouldn't even believe, and I look like a ghost, I hate this time of the month. And I feel like doing absolutely nothing, just laying down. But alas, I can't. I told myself that I would start my AP Calc assignments today, and I'm going to. Its going to take me awhile to finish them, and if I want to hang out this week, my mom said I have to finish my work. Gah.

Solo and Ensemble is coming up again. Doing a grade 6 oboe solo again. Cool piece I'm playing. It's different, has two technical fast movements, and 3 "lyrical" movements, that are really pretty. So far everything is going well on that piece. I'm doing a sax quartet with Alex Burden, have to start practicing that. A woodwind trio with Andy, and Jacob, and then an English Horn solo, hopefully, my first ever. :D So I'm really busy this year. Heh.

So I was searching John Hopkins for admission info. When I apply to colleges, I won't be applying as a freshman, but as a transfer. All it says is that I must have solid academic preparation in courses comparable to that offered at John Hopkins, and I must have a minimum 3.0 cumulative GPA. And you may submit  SATs and ACT scores, but it is not required. I honestly don't think I will get accepted, just for the fact that I am coming from a Community College, and not a university that some or most of those other applicants are coming from. But so far my GPA is really good at BCC, it would be higher if my asshole of a biology teacher didn't lose two of my labs, and gave me a B for it. :(

Anyways. I'm going. I feel like shit. :/

*wipes dust off LJ*

Ello good 'ole friend.  Its been awhile, a long while. I just felt like typing, so here I am.

I'm on winter vacation and I can find nothing better to do than spend it playing guitar hero III, going on the internet and procrastinating on assignments due when I get back. It seems that I need some motivation or something. I've been slacking on getting work done. As the years have gone by I've become more and more lazy. Its school and how much I am seriously getting tired of it. AP courses this year have made it worse, well at least AP Lang. I swear when this year is up I'm done with AP courses.  When this year is up I have one more and then off to a university, I can't wait, seriously.

Talking about uni. I came up with the bizarre thought of possibly applying to John Hopkins next year. Not that I'd really go or get accepted for that matter, and my parents don't want me going out of state, but I'm leaving options open as to possible universities. It has the top medical university in the nation basically, and if I got accepted, wow, there would be no words to describe it. But it was just a thought.

So another Christmas has come and gone. And soon December will be over with. No more Christmas lights, or Christmas trees, or the big-bellied guy pretending to be Santa at the local mall. The whole spirit of the Holidays will be gone, and the new year will begin. I hate it honestly. I love it when its Christmas, but when its over its just, bleh.  But I did have a great Christmas. Got a bunch of DVDs, Guitar Hero II to go with Guitar Hero III, an awesome guitar for Guitar hero, CDs, and an iTrip for my car. And I got to spend it with my whole family. Everyone came over and hung out, and I accidentally got my family hooked on Guitar Hero, its so funny.  Now New Years Eve is near. Can't wait for the huge party at my aunts. But I got to say, this year has brought me alot. I finally came in contact with my god-father who I haven't seen since I was literally like 9 months old. And I've got to see my two favorite bands EVER. Evanescence and Chevelle.   got to see Amy Lee up close (ground floor, right up to the stage) and Tim McCord from Evanescence even GAVE me his guitar pick, oh mm gee!! The year has been filled with good memories, and not-so-good ones which will probably always be in the back of my mind.

Anyways. SATs Jan. 26th, got to say not looking forward to that. But I got to get it over and done with.  Hm...anymore random news....oh I have a cat now!!! I named her Trinity after Trinity from the Matrix, haha. Shes black and white, and aggressive as all hell, but still sweet and cute.

I'm done for today. Until whenever. ;)

Its fucking hot as hell here in Palm Bay.

Its 90 something degrees out here, and the random rain showers aren't making it better, its in fact making it worse, making it more humid and making it feel like its over 100 degrees. And to top it all off my air condition broke yesterday. I have absolutely no cool air in my house, it feels like a furnance now. I'm dying of the heat.

We have no clue when we can get it fixed, it might cost over $1200 to replace whatever it is that broke, and that is money right now that we definitely don't have. So much shit has been happening these past months that I haven't really talked about. My dad lost his 2nd job, which really helped us with the financial stuff, now that he only has one job now, its really hurting us. His job now really does not pay him enough, what he gets there and what my mom gets go towards the bills and thats all.

My mom has been telling him to go and get a job but my dad has been fucking lazy, and hasn't done a damn thing. He just sits around, and ignores the fact, or probably doesn't care that we are in a serious rut. We can barely buy food, we're running out of money for gas, and we're having to not pay some bills. So now my parents are fighting, my mom is mad at my dad and nothing is getting better. I'm worried for my family, and worried that things aren't going to get better. I'm pissed at my father because of what he has done and said to us about this whole situation. I'm pissed at the fact that my dad doesn't seem to care, and hasn't done anything to help us. I'm angry at the fact that nothing can ever go right for our family, that something always has to happen to fuck things up even more. I'm just fed up with everything right now.

And what really bugs me is that I can't help them, at all. If i didn't have my music lessons and other music stuff to pay for, that money right there could go towards things that we need right now. I hate that I feel so helpless and useless.

I don't mean to sound like a drama queen or whatever. But life right now sucks.

Period.

So if I said that I started talking to Clay again, would you believe me?


Well....


I am.


A couple of days ago I sent him a message via. myspace. I don't know why, but I couldn't take it anymore, something just told me to message him. I told him everything. I started typing and I couldn't stop, its the first time in three years that I poured out my heart and my feelings, and told him exactly what I've been holding inside. It was actually such a relief, a weight was lifted off my shoulder. I honestly didn't expect a reply back, but he did. He told me he was so sorry, that he had no clue that I felt that way and that I should have told him. He said he felt terrible. And he also gave me his cell number, and to my surprise that same day he messaged me he called me. After three years he remembered my phone number, I was shocked. I just got off the phone with him, I can't believe how great it was to hear his voice. So we caught up on some things, it was a little awkward at times, but still really nice to hear from him. He said he is gonna keep calling me and that we are gonna stay in touch. And I hate to admit this...but I still miss him, and I want to see him so bad. :(

Anyways, moving on.

I got back from my FSU camp, oh my good god, it was amazing. The staff was incredibly nice and so fun to be around, they constantly made us laugh. We learned marching techniques, and how to teach other people. We also had conducting class, which helped me so much, even though I was experienced it still helped me improve. Then we had leadership class, which taught me so much about leadership qualities, and how to deal with certain issues in band. I also got to spend time with Alex, Melynn, Andy and Tori. We had so much fun together, we've gotten closer since camp. I know that this year, is going to be one of the best marching seasons ever. We not only have a great leadership staff, but we have amazing directors,  and an awesome show!

I have pics, but I'll post them in another entry.

I must go now and work on my test thats due tomorrow. :(

*huggles and kissies*

I got through my first week of BCC summer classes. Alive. Go me.

Not really.

 American Government is probably the most boringest (I made my own word) class, ever.  I can't honestly even remember what we have talked about. The class is at 8am, I spend most of my time trying to stay awake than trying to listen, that's bad right? Bleh...I extremely dislike, history, politics, and anything associated with that. Its gonna be a fun six weeks! *insert sarcasm here*

Thank God my Enivronmental Science class is more entertaining that the other class. My teacher is a scatterbrain, its so funny. I thought that I was going to find this class annoying and boring, but so far its proving quite the opposite. I have a huge project to start having to do with conserving energy at my house, which will be interesting, and I get to read an electric meter! haha. I also have the class with one of my best friends, which makes it oh so much better!

Okay, I honestly think I have done every survey known to mankind on myspace. But I'm bored. Not feeling good (PMS can be a real bitch!), and I, yeah....



I might not update tomorrow. So that means I won't see you guys for a week, well at least until Friday. Leadership camp is only 6 days long, whoo. So,  I hope you guys have an amazing week! I'll miss you!

*huggles and kissies*

Okay...so this whole thing with Brady's death has really made me kind of depressed, and not because he died, but because it reminds me of my cousins death. I haven't exactly mourned his death, because I wanted to be there for my mom and for my family and help them. Now when I am alone, without them in front of me, I remember...I remember his beautiful smile, I remember how everytime he saw me he would hug me so tight and say "Hey  beautiful..", I remember when he got shot, and was almost closed to death, how he reacted when he saw me when he was released, he ran to me first, hugged me so tight and started crying. I remember his handsome face, and how his face and eyes lit up...I remeber his laugh, and how it made him look so adorable....there is so much that I remember, that I dont want to forget. I miss him so much, it hurts now when I think about the memories and him. I want to see him, hug him and tell him how much I miss him and how much I really do love him. I never got that chance, I never got to see him before he died...and it bugs me everytime I think about it. He was mentioned again in church in "Prayer of the Faithful" for those who have passed away, I tried so hard to fight back my tears....and now as I sit here, I'm crying....I miss him, I really do. I never knew it would be this hard...

To get my mind off things, and lighten up the mood...here's a meme. Stolen from the wonderful cecism.  :]

( No matter what they told you, you're not alone. )
Ayy Gahh....I start my BCC summer classes tuesday, for a second there I thought Tuesday was tomorrow,  from 8:30am to 12 something. Enviromental Science and American Goverment, happy-happy-joy-joy! Well at least I get to hang with Julie tomorrow, going to the mall and wherever else her car decides to take us.

FSU marching Leadership camp next week....looking forward to it. I'm gonna be working my ass off.

oh and really sorry bout the depressing entry, I just had to get that off my chest and put it somewhere...

*huggles and kissies*</lj>

So....I never thought I would have to hear about a person I know committing suicide. But thus, it has happened. One of my bandmates from bayside, OD on pills (and supposedly slit his wrists according to Andrea) on Sunday, he was only 18 years old and had just graduated. I can't say that we were best of friends, but I knew him, I spent two years with him in band, and talked to him sometimes. I know he did ALOT of things that I hated, but the fact is he was a human being, and I knew him, and its just really sad to see a life wasted like that. I know there was obviously more to the story of why he did what he did, but the thing is, what could honestly be so bad that you would have to kill yourself? What makes you want to give up the rest of your life, and your future? I was shocked when I found out, I knew he tried a couple of times before, but he actually went through with it this time and succeeded. Life is such a precious gift, and I just hate it that he could have had more in his life, he was gonna move with his mom, and I am sure things would have gotten better for him. If only he had gotten help...

Anyways on a happier and lighter note...

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY LINDSEY!!!!!!

I know it was yesterday, but I wanted to post in in LJ too, hehe. I love you girl! &hearts; :]

And wow, call me stupid but I just found out Hugh Laurie will be in the new film that Keanu Reeves in starring in. You have NO idea how extremely happy that made me. I mean, it having Keanu Reeves in it was perfect, but Hugh Laurie too, that was just the icing on the cake! Yay! Two of my very favorite actors! Definitely can't wait to see it now! :D

Something very....umm....unexpected happen to me. One of my friends who was in my pre-calc class, moved about a month ago, and we've been talking online, well, he just admitted to me a couple of days ago that he really likes me, and that he wish he would have said something sooner to me, but he wasnt sure if it would have affected our friendship. This guy, is seriously unbelieveable, he has said some things to me that no guy has ever said. So, umm, I think, we are kind of in a relationship, I mean, I just told them we're friends but I think in a semi-relationship (if that makes sense), because he lives so far away. But yeah...its nice, lol. :]

And curse AP lang, I got the books, but I can't bring myself to start reading, only one sounds mildy interesting, the others...not so much.

And Bel, I have the pics of me playing! Warning! Very blurry, but at least you can see me, lol.



Okay, going....gosh, my LJ seriously needs something entertaining. Sorry guys...heh.

*huggles and kissies*

And I return once again....

Well, I got back saturday but from all the exhaustion I didn't feel like updating, and then the past couple of days I've been to lazy, what can I say?

But wow, my week was seriously amazing! I got to play English Horn in the top band (Symphonic band) and then I played oboe in the top chamber ensemble. I've always wanted to play EH and thanks to my private lessons teacher, Dr. Adams, she let me play it in the band. I love that instrument, and I really wish my school owned one, or I at least could buy one, but they cost more than my moms house and car combined...well, not really, but they sure are expensive, about $6,000 and up depending on the model and maker. But anyways, met alot of cool new peeps, one in which I am gonna miss her crazy ass, lol. Alot of laughing and inside jokes. I don't think I ever laughed as much as I laughed when I was up there, lol. And Dr. Adams almost made me cry in the final concert. After we were done performing, I Went up to her to take a picture with her, and she just went off on how proud she was of me and how much I've grown and how amazing I played.  The whole week I was kind of feeling like crap because I wasn't sure of what Dr. Adams was thinking about my playing and whatnot, but what she said really made me feel good. So maybe I am not as bad of a player as I think I am....heh.

I have some pics here, of Dr. Adams and my groupies. If you all want to see.



Anyways, I have to get some books for my AP lang class, I still have to get my BCC books, and I still have to start my AP Calc work...God, help me. Um....not sure what else.

OH!

I totally have my Evanescence tickets. Its official, I am seeing them in concert!! I think I'm gonna faint.

Hehe...

Anyways, off I go. *huggles and kissies*

ZZZOMMMGGG!!!!


I just finished my dreadful online course!!!!!!!! Thank the Lord, any longer and I would have gone clinically insane, and would have to be put in a psychiatric ward. Now that, that huge burden is off my chest, I can now enjoy the rest of my summer before summer classes start. *huge sigh of relief* This, however, is my FIRST and LAST  time I will EVER do an online course. First off, the course was waayy to stressful. Second, I do not want to spend another minute of my life reading extremely boring material, and trying desperately hard not to gouge out my very own eyes. Watching hair grow is far more exciting....heh.


Anyways...

I am in Jacksonville right now, celebrating my nephew and brothers birthday. Now thanks to my sister-in-law, I can't even move. She forced me to eat a HUGE chunk of cake, now my stomache is about to explode. Huge cream overload. But the cake, mmmm hmmmmm, gooodddd. *rubs belly*

Well, I am leaving for a week up to Stetson for my Double Reed Workshop. So unfortunately I won't be online until saturday, *sniff*. I am seriously going to miss my LJ....well, actually, my computer period. I'm too addicted to my computer, I am on it 24/7, haha. I don't know what I am going to do without my Hameron fix. Yikes.

I wuvv you guys! Hope you have an amazing week. I'll miss hearing from you! See you, or more like talk to you guys Saturday! *huggles and kissies* :D

&hearts;

Now that school is out I have nothing better to than spend it on my LJ doing meme and surveys. What can I say? My life is exciting.  But before the wonderful survey, a bit of random stuff that I didn't put in my last LJ post.

Okay, so probably all of you know what an extremely obsessed fan I am of Evanescence. Well guess what? I'm seeing them in concert!!!!! August, 12, 2007 at 2:30pm at the Amway Arena in Orlando! They are the co-header of the Family Values Tour, so I am going with my best friend Justin and my mom. I can't freaking wait! Tickets go on sale next Thursday! :D

And recently I have become obsessed (I guess thats the right word) with Jennifer Morrison. *points frantically at icon* Shes just too cute! It's basically because of House that I even know who she is, but shockingly I've seen another movie she was in without even knowing it was her. She played Samantha in Stir of Echoes! She looked so different in that movie. Anyways, she is such a talented actress, funny as heck, she loves Hugh Laurie, and shes freaking gorgeous, and she can handle a gun, my girlcrush is complete, lol.

Enough of my pointless ranting,  meme time. :]


And now, I must get ready. *hugs and kisses*

I'M BACK!!!!!!!!!



It's been over a month since I've been on here. I have so much to catch up on with all my flist, geez. Well, now that school is officially over for the summer break, I now have time to post. Go me...

Since my last post, I had my band banquet which I found out if I made any leadership positions, including Drum Major. Unfortunately I didn't get Drum Major. Instead I got Section Leader of the Saxophones, and Woodwind Captain (which I didn't even put down on my application, lol.). I am not at all disapointed in the positions I got, or the fact that I didn't get Drum Major. The people that got DM: Andy, Alex, and Melynn, will be amazing ones. They work well together, and I know they are going to do a great job. Even though I didn't want Woodwind Captain, I've come to realize that its a really freaking big deal, lol. You can say thats the highest leadership position under DM. :] I hope next year that I get DM. :D

At my band banquet, I also got a surprise award. I seriously was not expecting to get any award, I was hoping for a leadership position and thats all. But my band directors awarded me the Director's Award for Band which is basically given to one of the top musicians. I was shocked, lol. But after all the awards, we were able to dance and enjoy the rest of the night. So I partied with Becky, Mark, and Julie. And gosh, it was so much fun! lol.


And since then, all I did was basically study for my high school exams, get my projects turn in, and practice for my band placement auditions. Ohhhhh, I got my Veneer!!! my permanent one, I got it last week! I actually have a nice smile now, the crooked, effed up tooth is now, non-existent! Woot!


Brevard Community College

College Algebra - A
World Religions - A

YAY!  Another 4.0 for me!

Well, next week I am not going to be here. I am leaving for my Double Reed Workshop at Stetson, I won't be back until June 9th. I can't wait! I get to play on my teachers English Horn, and I get to see all my friends. And plus, this camp is just so much fun and an amazing music experience! :]

Then I start my session B Summer BCC classes when I get back. And then off to my Marching Band Leadership Camp up at FSU. YAY!

And waayyy random here, but, the season finale of House was last night!! My shipper heart is aching a little, but I have hope after the little H/C moment at the end. *crosses fingers* I am going to miss my House episodes for a couple of months! AHHH!!! Thank god theirs fanfiction, thats the only thats going to get my through.  Season 4 better be better!

Anyways, thats a little update to my life. Which, I know, was oh so freaking boring. My life is far from entertaining, lol.

Hope all is well with all of you! I haven't heard from you guys in forever! *kisses and huggles*

I felt like talking about my Drum Major auditions....

It went pretty damn well. I was stressing out sooooo much the whole morning all the way until by audition. I worked so very hard for this. I spent 3.5 hours after school on Thursday to work with Melynn, Alex on condutcing and fundamentals and Mr.Jackson even helped us on conducting. Then I spent my whole weekend practicing my alto and conducting, and this past Monday I spent an hour at school working on it with Melynn then went back to her house to work on it even more. My arms are seriously about to fall off.

Okay Auditions.  Well this is what it consisted of:

Playing my Alto Sax. piece
Playing a scale
Responding to commands
Giving commands
Conducting 
An interview

 "Wheres her application?"  *searching for my papers*
 "....I ate it."

I don't know why but that made me crack up during my audition. Thanks Mr. Jackson. The way he said it and his face expression towards Mr. Hudson made me just laugh. It made me feel a little less nervous. Mr.Jackson also pointed out to Mr.Brusett (or however the hell you spell his name) that I played oboe, so i guess that means they know its not my first instrument.

Well I played the piece pretty well, but I don't think my tone quality was that good. Thats what I get for playing an instrument that is not my primary instrument. I've only been playing the Alto Sax. for one year and thats only during Marching season, heh. They had me play G concert scale, ugh, I played it two octaves, and messed up a tiny bit on the top, but at least I tried.

Then Mr. Jackson and Mr. Hudson gave me commands and I followed them. Then I had to forward march for Mr. Jackson twice! The second time I did it, I tripped on my damn jeans! lol. After that I gave commands, which were fine.

I think the conducting was my best spot. Not really sure what to say about that. I think I could have put more face expression in, but other than that it was great.

Then the interview, I basically talked to Mr.Hudson the whole time which was totally fine for me. He had to mention that I was going to be a Junior. He only asked me about 4 questions, and then Mr. Jackson went and had to bring up the whole Alex-Melynn-Me group. He said hes noticed our little "clique" and how we spent our time working together and practicing together which he said that he really liked and it was fine, but that if they got it and I didn't would I still be supportive of them, and I told them I totally would. I don't know but after that little question, I'm not sure if they want us together as a team, hmm....maybe I'm thinking to much.

So that was basically it. I really hope they pick three Drum Majors, and I really hope that two of them are seniors and one junior. I want this SOOOO bad!!! I have to wait two weeks now!!! :/

...and he is so damn cute. I think he almost asked me on a "date" (if that is the right word) to go and see Bowling For Soup with him....but then Ashley came over, so I am not sure where he was getting at, lol.

Anyways I'm off, House is on!!! :D

OHH!! How about this!

I got a flipping SUPERIOR at State Solo and Ensemble for my oboe solo!!!! Yep. Seriously. I couldn't believe it.  I am so excited! It was my first year going and I got my Superior. YAY! *does a happy dance* :D

Okay. Since we had State yesterday, I got to miss the whole day of school. Yeah. Not that fun. I had to get up at 3am, get ready and get my stuff ready and meet in the band room at 4:30am since the bus was supossedly leaving at 5am. Yeaaahhh, that defintely didin't happen.  I got to the school at 4:30am like I was supossed to, but the damn bus didn't show up at 5 like it was supossed to. Mr.Hudson called the bus company and they had made a mistake. The guy  told the bus driver that he was going to drive Westshore, and Westshore wasn't going to State until later in the day. Meanwhile, we are waiting outside for the bus to show. So the guy said that he was going to call the bus driver and tell him to get ready so he could drive us. We didn't leave until 7:30ish. So the band directors had to call and tell the FBA people if they could please reschedule all our times that were in the morning since we wouldn't be making it.  It took us a good three hours to get down to Miami. Geez. We had an extremely long day. We got back at 10:30ish, and then went home. I am sooooooooo wiped out right now. But I still got to do homework. Bleh....

So that is my story about State. Anyways, Spring Break is over, and it sucks. I can't even really say I had a "break". I wish it was summer already.

New Epsidoe of House tonight!!! Hopefully I won't miss it, I have to go to my aunts house its my cousin's 15th birthday. Hehe.

I am falling asleep as I type, so I guess its my cue to go, and that its only 4:13pm.  *hugs and kisses*

Okay, I know none of you watch House, but I got to vent here.....

Ahhhhhh!!! Last nights episode has got to be the most craziest episode thus far. I honestly don't know what to make of it. Okay, tell me....how can you go from building up one ship to totally throwing it off and adding two others in, it makes no sense! The whole Cameron/Chase and House/Cuddy thing totally came out of nowhere! I wanted to slap Cameron last night. Her behavior was totally....not Cameron like! She went from being so sweet, delicate and ethical Cameron to a total horny-not-caring-what-happens Cameron. Not good. How can you go from sharing an extremely passionate kiss with House to "doing the deed" in a sleep lab, and in a hospital closet with Chase, and say you are over House? Yeah right. Even Chase knows that she is doing it to make him Jealous. Ugh, and the whole House/Cuddy thing totally did not agree with me. I was hoping there would have been more of a reaction out of House when he caught them in the closet, but all he did was smirk, hopefully the whole situation will hit him soon. The only one I loved in this episode was Wilson, but then again how can you not? My Hameron ship is not going good. Right when I thought it was going smoothly, they had to put this in...what are these writers planning? Guh...thank God for the community House_Cameron.  /rant

Really sorry for that. Had to let that out.  Hehe.

Welll....I went to the mall today to get my outfit for State Solo and ensemble, and also got a new bathing suit because my other one was big on me. *gasp* lol.  Umm...not much else has happened, except that I am screwed because of my online course, but what else is new, haha.

I AM GOING TO THE BEACH ON FRIDAY! Hoorah! lol. :)

Whoa. Its been over a week since I've updated.  Bleh....

Anyways,  what has happened? Well, I got my progress report from Bayside! Haha.

Pre-calc - A
English GAPP - A
Wind Ensemble -A
Chemistry Honors - A

Woot! 4.0!! And for my grades I was able to get my Season 1 of House MD. on DVD.!! I watched all 19 episodes these past three days, lol. I know I'm obsessed and my obsession just got bigger, hehe. New Episode of House tonight infact! Yes!!

It sucks that even though I am on Spring Break I still have homework to do, and its all thanks to my stupid online course, which I am three weeks behind thanks to band and college stuff. I should be doing it right now, but ugh, procrastination has got me right now.

Anyways, before Spring Break Mr. Jackson gave us info on Leadership this year. Let me say that it is completely different than last year. We have to sign an application and we have to write an essay. Then we are having leadership classes one week, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. Then we have one week of Section Leader/Captain auditions and then one week of Drum Major auditions. I am not sure when exactly this all starts, but I am a bit nervous and scared, I am not sure what to expect when I go in.

And there is this guy on myspace, named Brian Krough (he goes to Bayside), who has been talking to be the past couple of days, hes really sweet and nice, but I am not sure what to think, if hes interested or not. He has a gf. Whatever.

I don't know what else to type....anyone want to do my online course? hehe.

*lets out a big sigh of relief* PHEW...............its over, finally. MPA is finally over. We had some problems,  but nevermind those, for the rating....we got a freaking EXCELLENT. I got to say I was a little disapointed, we did such a great job (well except for the beginning of Pageant, those darn Clarinets!). But we got straight 2's (excellent). Mr. Hudson was talking to the parents and he said that alot of band directors were calling him saying that we should have gotten a Superior, that made me feel a little better, but w/e, you can't change the judges mind.

I hate that I feel like I am the only one that is optimistic, and I hate feeling like I am the only one trying to make everything work out. I wish people could see the way I see things, and then maybe things would be different. People seriously need to stop being immature and get a grip on life...you can't always get what you want, and you can't have things always going your way, thats not the way it is.

Anyways, after our concert Becky, Chris, Lindsey, me and some other band kids went out to eat at Denny's. That was sooo much funnn!!! I had a great time, it was nice just talking, laughing and hanging out.

Ehh....what else? oh yeah, found out some really depressing news about someone on Saturday. And I can't believe how much it has hit me. I feel so bad for him, yet I want to strangle him and ask him, what the hell is his problem? Why? I partially told him how I felt once, and I was surprised at the repsonse he gave me, heh...I guess that gives him a hint that I care? I feel like talking to him about it, but like that is gonna do anything.

Anyways, I forgot I have College Algebra homework due tomorrow, hope all is well with all of you! *hugs and kisses*

oh and my friends parents recorded the concert, if I get a copy I might upload it on here. But not sure of the quality. :]

First of all....Happy Birthday Cec! *throws confetti* I do hope you enjoy your birthday and that its a wonderful year for you! *hugs* :D

Oki...so I have a little time to post my comment on the movie Premontion(no spoilers):

I thought the movie was fantastic! Sandy did an amazing job, I think this is one her best performances. She really put alot of emotion in her role and you could really feel it. Julian was pretty good, and the chemistry between him and Sandy was really good too. I was really sucked in and I am telling you I was at the edge of my seat the whole time wondering if she was going to figure out a way to save him. I don't understand why people said the ending sucked, I loved it. It pulled together the whole meaning of the movie (which is really touching). It made me want to cry, haha.  While the movie was confusing, you just had to take time to think about it and then everything will make sense. I am not going to say any spoilers for anybody on my journal who wants to the see the movie themselves. But go and see it, its seriously worth the money. I want to see it again!! :]

...and the guy that played Lucifer(Satan) in Constantine is in there! I just thought I'd point that out, hee.

Haha...I asked my mom who had greater chemistry Sandra bullock and Keanu Reeves or Sandra Bullock and Julian McHanon? She said....Julian McHanon. I was like, "WHAT?!?" but then shes like I really don't know, haha. I'd say Keanu but then again I'm biased. All I have to say is that in the scene when she goes into the shower to hug Julian, and they are just holding each other and whatnot, I was wishing it was Keanu, lmao. Oki....sorry for the little spoiler.


Anyways, I have Concert Festival today. I have to be at school at 4pm, and we perform at Satellite at 7:30pm, oh gosh...I really hope we do well. I wll post our rating when I get back.

I'm off to go back to cleaning my music room. *hugs and kisses*