So if I said that I started talking to Clay again, would you believe me?


Well....


I am.


A couple of days ago I sent him a message via. myspace. I don't know why, but I couldn't take it anymore, something just told me to message him. I told him everything. I started typing and I couldn't stop, its the first time in three years that I poured out my heart and my feelings, and told him exactly what I've been holding inside. It was actually such a relief, a weight was lifted off my shoulder. I honestly didn't expect a reply back, but he did. He told me he was so sorry, that he had no clue that I felt that way and that I should have told him. He said he felt terrible. And he also gave me his cell number, and to my surprise that same day he messaged me he called me. After three years he remembered my phone number, I was shocked. I just got off the phone with him, I can't believe how great it was to hear his voice. So we caught up on some things, it was a little awkward at times, but still really nice to hear from him. He said he is gonna keep calling me and that we are gonna stay in touch. And I hate to admit this...but I still miss him, and I want to see him so bad. :(

Anyways, moving on.

I got back from my FSU camp, oh my good god, it was amazing. The staff was incredibly nice and so fun to be around, they constantly made us laugh. We learned marching techniques, and how to teach other people. We also had conducting class, which helped me so much, even though I was experienced it still helped me improve. Then we had leadership class, which taught me so much about leadership qualities, and how to deal with certain issues in band. I also got to spend time with Alex, Melynn, Andy and Tori. We had so much fun together, we've gotten closer since camp. I know that this year, is going to be one of the best marching seasons ever. We not only have a great leadership staff, but we have amazing directors,  and an awesome show!

I have pics, but I'll post them in another entry.

I must go now and work on my test thats due tomorrow. :(

*huggles and kissies*