Any Sudden Movement of My Heart

I was wrong...

Fri, 04 Jan 2008 19:44:37 GMT

So I thought that maybe we could survive 2008 without any deaths...I was wrong.

I found out last night that my aunt in Puerto Rico died. She has been sick the past couple of months, had three strokes, a heart attack, and had fibroid tumors in her uterus. Well shes been in the hospital, unable to move or talk, her BP dropped last night, and she went. They found cancer once she passed.

God. I can't believe it.

R.I.P Tia Linda.

I know now that you're in a better place without any pain and suffering, and you're watching us and keeping us save from above. You'll always be in our hearts. I love you so much.

Its a new year.

Mon, 31 Dec 2007 23:22:58 GMT

Another year has come and gone. This year has brought me so much, both good and bad. I have so many wonderful memories from this year that I will cherish for life, and experiences that I thought I would never be able to do. The bad moments to my life, have really impacted me, but I've learned from them, they have made me stronger, and I grew as a person because of them. Reality has hit me, 2008 is coming which means I am almost a senior. I have one more year, and then I'm off on my own.

Here is a look at the good and bad of 2007.

Getting my first superior at State Solo and Ensemble
My cousin Joshua's death. I love you sweetie. Happy New Years.
Becoming Head Section Leader and Woodwind Captain
Seeing my favorite band in concert Evanescence, and getting a guitar pick from my rockstar husband Tim Mccord.
Seeing my second band in concert Chevelle! And getting another guitar pick from Dean!
Getting accepted into the Phi Theta Kappa.
Getting away from him, and realizing I have to stop trusting so easily.
My God Father finding me on myspace, and me meeting him. After 16 years, hes finally in my life.
Seeing Cirque Du Soliel
Talking to Clay after 3 years
Getting my License!!!
Getting STRAIGHT SUPERIORS at District Marching Festival!!!!!

Hmm, I think that is all. The good outweighs the bad. :D

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!!

Goodbye 2007...

...and hello 2008. I'm ready, bring it on. :D

Sing as their bones coming marching in....

Sun, 30 Dec 2007 22:09:45 GMT

So I made an old lady laugh yesterday. It was just the cutest thing to see. She was on her scooter wheelchair thingy in Walmart and she was listening to what I was saying and just started laughing, and was smiling at my mom and I. It made me feel good in a way., that I could bring a smile to her face. :)

So I feel like a glob of nothing today, if that even makes sense. Cramps like you wouldn't even believe, and I look like a ghost, I hate this time of the month. And I feel like doing absolutely nothing, just laying down. But alas, I can't. I told myself that I would start my AP Calc assignments today, and I'm going to. Its going to take me awhile to finish them, and if I want to hang out this week, my mom said I have to finish my work. Gah.

Solo and Ensemble is coming up again. Doing a grade 6 oboe solo again. Cool piece I'm playing. It's different, has two technical fast movements, and 3 "lyrical" movements, that are really pretty. So far everything is going well on that piece. I'm doing a sax quartet with Alex Burden, have to start practicing that. A woodwind trio with Andy, and Jacob, and then an English Horn solo, hopefully, my first ever. :D So I'm really busy this year. Heh.

So I was searching John Hopkins for admission info. When I apply to colleges, I won't be applying as a freshman, but as a transfer. All it says is that I must have solid academic preparation in courses comparable to that offered at John Hopkins, and I must have a minimum 3.0 cumulative GPA. And you may submit SATs and ACT scores, but it is not required. I honestly don't think I will get accepted, just for the fact that I am coming from a Community College, and not a university that some or most of those other applicants are coming from. But so far my GPA is really good at BCC, it would be higher if my asshole of a biology teacher didn't lose two of my labs, and gave me a B for it. :(

Anyways. I'm going. I feel like shit. :/

Talking to the Walls

Sat, 29 Dec 2007 02:44:31 GMT

*wipes dust off LJ*

Ello good 'ole friend. Its been awhile, a long while. I just felt like typing, so here I am.

I'm on winter vacation and I can find nothing better to do than spend it playing guitar hero III, going on the internet and procrastinating on assignments due when I get back. It seems that I need some motivation or something. I've been slacking on getting work done. As the years have gone by I've become more and more lazy. Its school and how much I am seriously getting tired of it. AP courses this year have made it worse, well at least AP Lang. I swear when this year is up I'm done with AP courses. When this year is up I have one more and then off to a university, I can't wait, seriously.

Talking about uni. I came up with the bizarre thought of possibly applying to John Hopkins next year. Not that I'd really go or get accepted for that matter, and my parents don't want me going out of state, but I'm leaving options open as to possible universities. It has the top medical university in the nation basically, and if I got accepted, wow, there would be no words to describe it. But it was just a thought.

So another Christmas has come and gone. And soon December will be over with. No more Christmas lights, or Christmas trees, or the big-bellied guy pretending to be Santa at the local mall. The whole spirit of the Holidays will be gone, and the new year will begin. I hate it honestly. I love it when its Christmas, but when its over its just, bleh. But I did have a great Christmas. Got a bunch of DVDs, Guitar Hero II to go with Guitar Hero III, an awesome guitar for Guitar hero, CDs, and an iTrip for my car. And I got to spend it with my whole family. Everyone came over and hung out, and I accidentally got my family hooked on Guitar Hero, its so funny. Now New Years Eve is near. Can't wait for the huge party at my aunts. But I got to say, this year has brought me alot. I finally came in contact with my god-father who I haven't seen since I was literally like 9 months old. And I've got to see my two favorite bands EVER. Evanescence and Chevelle. got to see Amy Lee up close (ground floor, right up to the stage) and Tim McCord from Evanescence even GAVE me his guitar pick, oh mm gee!! The year has been filled with good memories, and not-so-good ones which will probably always be in the back of my mind.

Anyways. SATs Jan. 26th, got to say not looking forward to that. But I got to get it over and done with. Hm...anymore random news....oh I have a cat now!!! I named her Trinity after Trinity from the Matrix, haha. Shes black and white, and aggressive as all hell, but still sweet and cute.

I'm done for today. Until whenever. ;)

Into the abyss will I run.

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 21:59:18 GMT

Its fucking hot as hell here in Palm Bay.

Its 90 something degrees out here, and the random rain showers aren't making it better, its in fact making it worse, making it more humid and making it feel like its over 100 degrees. And to top it all off my air condition broke yesterday. I have absolutely no cool air in my house, it feels like a furnance now. I'm dying of the heat.

We have no clue when we can get it fixed, it might cost over $1200 to replace whatever it is that broke, and that is money right now that we definitely don't have. So much shit has been happening these past months that I haven't really talked about. My dad lost his 2nd job, which really helped us with the financial stuff, now that he only has one job now, its really hurting us. His job now really does not pay him enough, what he gets there and what my mom gets go towards the bills and thats all.

My mom has been telling him to go and get a job but my dad has been fucking lazy, and hasn't done a damn thing. He just sits around, and ignores the fact, or probably doesn't care that we are in a serious rut. We can barely buy food, we're running out of money for gas, and we're having to not pay some bills. So now my parents are fighting, my mom is mad at my dad and nothing is getting better. I'm worried for my family, and worried that things aren't going to get better. I'm pissed at my father because of what he has done and said to us about this whole situation. I'm pissed at the fact that my dad doesn't seem to care, and hasn't done anything to help us. I'm angry at the fact that nothing can ever go right for our family, that something always has to happen to fuck things up even more. I'm just fed up with everything right now.

And what really bugs me is that I can't help them, at all. If i didn't have my music lessons and other music stuff to pay for, that money right there could go towards things that we need right now. I hate that I feel so helpless and useless.

I don't mean to sound like a drama queen or whatever. But life right now sucks.

Period.

Breathe into me and make me real.

Thu, 12 Jul 2007 01:04:31 GMT

So if I said that I started talking to Clay again, would you believe me?

Well....

I am.

A couple of days ago I sent him a message via. myspace. I don't know why, but I couldn't take it anymore, something just told me to message him. I told him everything. I started typing and I couldn't stop, its the first time in three years that I poured out my heart and my feelings, and told him exactly what I've been holding inside. It was actually such a relief, a weight was lifted off my shoulder. I honestly didn't expect a reply back, but he did. He told me he was so sorry, that he had no clue that I felt that way and that I should have told him. He said he felt terrible. And he also gave me his cell number, and to my surprise that same day he messaged me he called me. After three years he remembered my phone number, I was shocked. I just got off the phone with him, I can't believe how great it was to hear his voice. So we caught up on some things, it was a little awkward at times, but still really nice to hear from him. He said he is gonna keep calling me and that we are gonna stay in touch. And I hate to admit this...but I still miss him, and I want to see him so bad. :(

Anyways, moving on.

I got back from my FSU camp, oh my good god, it was amazing. The staff was incredibly nice and so fun to be around, they constantly made us laugh. We learned marching techniques, and how to teach other people. We also had conducting class, which helped me so much, even though I was experienced it still helped me improve. Then we had leadership class, which taught me so much about leadership qualities, and how to deal with certain issues in band. I also got to spend time with Alex, Melynn, Andy and Tori. We had so much fun together, we've gotten closer since camp. I know that this year, is going to be one of the best marching seasons ever. We not only have a great leadership staff, but we have amazing directors, and an awesome show!

I have pics, but I'll post them in another entry.

I must go now and work on my test thats due tomorrow. :(

*huggles and kissies*

I can hear you in a whisper...

Fri, 29 Jun 2007 17:22:00 GMT

I got through my first week of BCC summer classes. Alive. Go me.

Not really.

American Government is probably the most boringest (I made my own word) class, ever. I can't honestly even remember what we have talked about. The class is at 8am, I spend most of my time trying to stay awake than trying to listen, that's bad right? Bleh...I extremely dislike, history, politics, and anything associated with that. Its gonna be a fun six weeks! *insert sarcasm here*

Thank God my Enivronmental Science class is more entertaining that the other class. My teacher is a scatterbrain, its so funny. I thought that I was going to find this class annoying and boring, but so far its proving quite the opposite. I have a huge project to start having to do with conserving energy at my house, which will be interesting, and I get to read an electric meter! haha. I also have the class with one of my best friends, which makes it oh so much better!

Okay, I honestly think I have done every survey known to mankind on myspace. But I'm bored. Not feeling good (PMS can be a real bitch!), and I, yeah....

1. What is your middle name?
Krystle

2. How big is your bed?
Full size...I think my bed hates me, I haven't been able to sleep

3. What are you listening to right now?
Passive by A Perfect Circle

5. What was the last thing you did today?
I've done absolutely nothing today. its a wonderful thing.

6. Last person who drove you somewhere?
Julie drove us to the mall.

7. How is the weather right now?
cloudy and rainy, just how I like it.

8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Melynn

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Eyes, Smile, hands. :]

10. Favorite type of Food?
Chinese! I could eat chinese food every day if I was allowed to.

11. Do you want children? How many
I've decided I only want one. Babysitting a niece and nephew can really open your eyes on how much work it is.

12. What is a strange fact about you?
I have to smell my pillow before I go to sleep to see what side I slept on.

13. Ever get so drunk you don't remember the entire night?
I'm not even old enough to drink yet. But its not my thing anyways.

14. Hair color?
Its supossed to be a red, but the glaze and highlights are fading, and the sun has done some crazy stuff to it. So it looks auburn with gold in it.

15. Eye color?
Light brown

16. Do you wear eye contacts?
When I am going out

17. Favorite holiday?
Thanksgiving and Christmas

18. Favorite Season?
Fall

19. Have you ever cried over a girl/boy?
Too many times.

20. Last Movie you Watched?
Constantine actually

21. Something you can't wait for?
FSU camp, and my Evanescence concert!

22. Do you chew ice?
yep

23. McDreamy or Mcsteamy?
I'll take a Dr. House anyday....haha. but looking at pics, I'll take McSteamy even though I dont even watch the show. He was in Charmed, and man hes hot.

24. Would you like some beer? milk? bologna?
No, but some cookie dough ice cream would be nice, kthanks.

25. Do you know what the snack that smiles back is?
GOLDFISH.

26. Are you feeling extra happy today?
Quite the opposite, like crap. I hate PMSing...

27. Good or evil?
Good

28. Favorite disney movie?
Aladdin! <3 I wanted to be Jasmine

29. What book are you reading?
Man's Search for Meaning, and its actually pretty good, kind of depressing though

30. Piercings?
Ears

31. Favorite Movie?
The Lake House, duh. :]

32. Favorite Sporting Team?
Eh...used to be the Knicks. Don't keep up with sports anymore

33. What were you doing before this?
um, eating.

34. Any pets?
2 fishes and a bird

35. AIM?
Yes,

36. Who's your favorite anchorman?
umm...

37. Luke or Owen Wilson?
Luke Wilson. Hes pretty cute. But both are great

38. Favorite Flower?
Peach Rose. Or purple Lilies.

39. What movie do you look forward to seeing?
Fantastic 4 s, and Harry Potter

40. Have you ever loved someone?
Yes

41. Who would you like to see right now?
Alot of people actually

42. Last time you cried?
a couple of days ago.

43. Last game you played?
Kingdom Hearts 2

44. Do you like to travel by plane?
yes, only done it once, but it was pretty cool

45. Right-handed or Left-handed?
Right-handed

46. If you could go to any place right now where would you go?
Definitely Spain.

47. Are you missing someone?
yes

48. Ever notice how songs you loved when you were little, are even more dirty now?
sure?

49. Do you have a tattoo?
ew.

50. Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?
I sleep

51. What are you plans for today?
mall to get last minute things for FSU

52. Are you 18?
1 year away.

53. What is the wallpaper on your cellphone?
Haha, my friend Chris from Stetson.

54. Did you get enough sleep last night?
yeah, I guess.

55. First thing you thought about this morning?
Oh gosh...cramps. Lets go back to sleep.

57. Grilled or fried?
fried. Oh the cholestrol.

58.What's your favorite SNL cast member?
Hugh Laurie...come on he was in drag. Enuff said.

59. Whens the last time you saw your best friend(s)?
Throughout this week.

60. Are you afraid of the dark?
Chyeah....

61. When was your last road trip?
Haven't gone on one, damn it

62. 4 people you cant live with out ?
Mom, mark, julie, Amy

63. First thing you will buy if given 50 thousand dollars?
Loree oboe and EH. Buy my mom her car so I get hers.

64. Favorite song?
Alot. But right now, Fully Alive by Flyleaf. Going Under by Evanescence

65. What are you afraid of?
Being alone.

66. Are you a giver or a taker?
Giver, definitely

67. What do people call you for short?
Alex, twizzler.

68. What is your dads middle name?
Guillermo

69. Whats your mothers middle name?
Luz

70. Stuck on a deserted island & could bring 4 things?
my oboe, a friend, gas, toothbrush (heh)

71. Favorite commerical?
wow....no clue

72.Whos your cell phone provider?
AT&T

73. whos locker is next to yours?
Julie's, Melynn's and Alex's used to be next to mine in band

74. Favorite color?
Purple and Red

75. What are the things you'll always bring with you?
Cell phone, wallet, keys, purse.

76. What did you want to be when you were a kid?
astronomer

77. What do you usually do when the clock turns 7am?
still sleeping

78. The color of your bed sheets?
Purple!

79. Who do you want to meet?
Amy Lee. Sandy and Keanu. Jennifer Morrison and hugh Laurie

80. What do you think about before you go to sleep?
Its right when I lay down to sleep that my brain kicks into overdrive and everything starts going threw my head. Its crazy.

Boring right? Yeah, I know.

I might not update tomorrow. So that means I won't see you guys for a week, well at least until Friday. Leadership camp is only 6 days long, whoo. So, I hope you guys have an amazing week! I'll miss you!

*huggles and kissies*

I'll be right beside you forevermore...

Sun, 24 Jun 2007 19:02:28 GMT

Okay...so this whole thing with Brady's death has really made me kind of depressed, and not because he died, but because it reminds me of my cousins death. I haven't exactly mourned his death, because I wanted to be there for my mom and for my family and help them. Now when I am alone, without them in front of me, I remember...I remember his beautiful smile, I remember how everytime he saw me he would hug me so tight and say "Hey beautiful..", I remember when he got shot, and was almost closed to death, how he reacted when he saw me when he was released, he ran to me first, hugged me so tight and started crying. I remember his handsome face, and how his face and eyes lit up...I remeber his laugh, and how it made him look so adorable....there is so much that I remember, that I dont want to forget. I miss him so much, it hurts now when I think about the memories and him. I want to see him, hug him and tell him how much I miss him and how much I really do love him. I never got that chance, I never got to see him before he died...and it bugs me everytime I think about it. He was mentioned again in church in "Prayer of the Faithful" for those who have passed away, I tried so hard to fight back my tears....and now as I sit here, I'm crying....I miss him, I really do. I never knew it would be this hard...

To get my mind off things, and lighten up the mood...here's a meme. Stolen from the wonderful cecism. :]

The Movie Quote Meme

THE RULES:
[1] Pick 12 of your favorite movies.
[2] Then pick one of your favorite quotes from each movie.
[3] Post the quotes in your journal.
[4] Have those on your friends list guess what the movie is.
[5] Extra points for knowing the actor and character's name.
[6] Strike out the quote once it has been correctly identified.

1. $200 Dollar Shirt by the way...
2. The heart dies a slow death, shedding each hope like leaves. Until one day there are none.
3. Oh! We have a comedian! What, did you have clown for breakfast this morning?
4. Do the Q-tip! Q-tip! Now throw it away! Now what am I doing? I'm makin a pizza!
5. I have to warn you, I've heard relationships based on intense experiences never work
6. The pen is blue, the pen is blue, the goddamn pen is blue!
7. I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it. One.
8. He was a lot like me, brown hair, flat chest.
9. With all this foil in my hair I'm getting HBO
10. No. *You* want you to find this. Because the finding of this finds you incapacitorially finding and/or locating in your discovering the detecting of a way to save your bonny lass, ol' what's-er-face.
11. Yeah, right, and no harm ever came from reading a book. You remember how that one went?
12. That is not true. I did call Slurpee Heaven. They didn't want you. Heard you had attitude. Said you weren't "Slurpee" material.

Not sure if some of those are right, but whatev.
Ayy Gahh....I start my BCC summer classes tuesday, for a second there I thought Tuesday was tomorrow, from 8:30am to 12 something. Enviromental Science and American Goverment, happy-happy-joy-joy! Well at least I get to hang with Julie tomorrow, going to the mall and wherever else her car decides to take us.

FSU marching Leadership camp next week....looking forward to it. I'm gonna be working my ass off.

oh and really sorry bout the depressing entry, I just had to get that off my chest and put it somewhere...

*huggles and kissies*</lj>

An Open Embrace Upon a Bleeding Tree...

Fri, 22 Jun 2007 01:54:32 GMT

So....I never thought I would have to hear about a person I know committing suicide. But thus, it has happened. One of my bandmates from bayside, OD on pills (and supposedly slit his wrists according to Andrea) on Sunday, he was only 18 years old and had just graduated. I can't say that we were best of friends, but I knew him, I spent two years with him in band, and talked to him sometimes. I know he did ALOT of things that I hated, but the fact is he was a human being, and I knew him, and its just really sad to see a life wasted like that. I know there was obviously more to the story of why he did what he did, but the thing is, what could honestly be so bad that you would have to kill yourself? What makes you want to give up the rest of your life, and your future? I was shocked when I found out, I knew he tried a couple of times before, but he actually went through with it this time and succeeded. Life is such a precious gift, and I just hate it that he could have had more in his life, he was gonna move with his mom, and I am sure things would have gotten better for him. If only he had gotten help...

Anyways on a happier and lighter note...

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY LINDSEY!!!!!!

I know it was yesterday, but I wanted to post in in LJ too, hehe. I love you girl! &hearts; :]

And wow, call me stupid but I just found out Hugh Laurie will be in the new film that Keanu Reeves in starring in. You have NO idea how extremely happy that made me. I mean, it having Keanu Reeves in it was perfect, but Hugh Laurie too, that was just the icing on the cake! Yay! Two of my very favorite actors! Definitely can't wait to see it now! :D

Something very....umm....unexpected happen to me. One of my friends who was in my pre-calc class, moved about a month ago, and we've been talking online, well, he just admitted to me a couple of days ago that he really likes me, and that he wish he would have said something sooner to me, but he wasnt sure if it would have affected our friendship. This guy, is seriously unbelieveable, he has said some things to me that no guy has ever said. So, umm, I think, we are kind of in a relationship, I mean, I just told them we're friends but I think in a semi-relationship (if that makes sense), because he lives so far away. But yeah...its nice, lol. :]

And curse AP lang, I got the books, but I can't bring myself to start reading, only one sounds mildy interesting, the others...not so much.

And Bel, I have the pics of me playing! Warning! Very blurry, but at least you can see me, lol.

Okay, they were all takien when I was playing the EH and oboe, except for the last one.

Preparing to play my oboe in my chamber groups. :]

Playing EH in symphonic band.

Playing EH again. Sorry for the really screwed up face I made, lol.

This was taken of me last year at the camp. It was before my camera got all crappy. Figured I show you this one, since the other ones are crap!

Really sorry for the really bad quality. I really dont know why camera is like that.

Okay, going....gosh, my LJ seriously needs something entertaining. Sorry guys...heh.

*huggles and kissies*

Time will never destroy your heart....

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 19:27:56 GMT

And I return once again....

Well, I got back saturday but from all the exhaustion I didn't feel like updating, and then the past couple of days I've been to lazy, what can I say?

But wow, my week was seriously amazing! I got to play English Horn in the top band (Symphonic band) and then I played oboe in the top chamber ensemble. I've always wanted to play EH and thanks to my private lessons teacher, Dr. Adams, she let me play it in the band. I love that instrument, and I really wish my school owned one, or I at least could buy one, but they cost more than my moms house and car combined...well, not really, but they sure are expensive, about $6,000 and up depending on the model and maker. But anyways, met alot of cool new peeps, one in which I am gonna miss her crazy ass, lol. Alot of laughing and inside jokes. I don't think I ever laughed as much as I laughed when I was up there, lol. And Dr. Adams almost made me cry in the final concert. After we were done performing, I Went up to her to take a picture with her, and she just went off on how proud she was of me and how much I've grown and how amazing I played. The whole week I was kind of feeling like crap because I wasn't sure of what Dr. Adams was thinking about my playing and whatnot, but what she said really made me feel good. So maybe I am not as bad of a player as I think I am....heh.

I have some pics here, of Dr. Adams and my groupies. If you all want to see.

Dr. Adams and me. Shes my idol.

Jessica and Me. But I call her "Gary". :D

El Groupo- Me, Marissa, Chris and Richard (Charzard) :]

Those are just a couple of pics. I am gonna miss them.

Anyways, I have to get some books for my AP lang class, I still have to get my BCC books, and I still have to start my AP Calc work...God, help me. Um....not sure what else.

OH!

I totally have my Evanescence tickets. Its official, I am seeing them in concert!! I think I'm gonna faint.

Hehe...

Anyways, off I go. *huggles and kissies*

And it's finally over...

Mon, 04 Jun 2007 02:12:01 GMT

ZZZOMMMGGG!!!!

I just finished my dreadful online course!!!!!!!! Thank the Lord, any longer and I would have gone clinically insane, and would have to be put in a psychiatric ward. Now that, that huge burden is off my chest, I can now enjoy the rest of my summer before summer classes start. *huge sigh of relief* This, however, is my FIRST and LAST time I will EVER do an online course. First off, the course was waayy to stressful. Second, I do not want to spend another minute of my life reading extremely boring material, and trying desperately hard not to gouge out my very own eyes. Watching hair grow is far more exciting....heh.

Anyways...

I am in Jacksonville right now, celebrating my nephew and brothers birthday. Now thanks to my sister-in-law, I can't even move. She forced me to eat a HUGE chunk of cake, now my stomache is about to explode. Huge cream overload. But the cake, mmmm hmmmmm, gooodddd. *rubs belly*

Well, I am leaving for a week up to Stetson for my Double Reed Workshop. So unfortunately I won't be online until saturday, *sniff*. I am seriously going to miss my LJ....well, actually, my computer period. I'm too addicted to my computer, I am on it 24/7, haha. I don't know what I am going to do without my Hameron fix. Yikes.

I wuvv you guys! Hope you have an amazing week. I'll miss hearing from you! See you, or more like talk to you guys Saturday! *huggles and kissies* :D

&hearts;

We last because we're colorful....

Fri, 01 Jun 2007 17:06:22 GMT

Now that school is out I have nothing better to than spend it on my LJ doing meme and surveys. What can I say? My life is exciting. But before the wonderful survey, a bit of random stuff that I didn't put in my last LJ post.

Okay, so probably all of you know what an extremely obsessed fan I am of Evanescence. Well guess what? I'm seeing them in concert!!!!! August, 12, 2007 at 2:30pm at the Amway Arena in Orlando! They are the co-header of the Family Values Tour, so I am going with my best friend Justin and my mom. I can't freaking wait! Tickets go on sale next Thursday! :D

And recently I have become obsessed (I guess thats the right word) with Jennifer Morrison. *points frantically at icon* Shes just too cute! It's basically because of House that I even know who she is, but shockingly I've seen another movie she was in without even knowing it was her. She played Samantha in Stir of Echoes! She looked so different in that movie. Anyways, she is such a talented actress, funny as heck, she loves Hugh Laurie, and shes freaking gorgeous, and she can handle a gun, my girlcrush is complete, lol.

Enough of my pointless ranting, meme time. :]

Chick Flick Meme
I stole it from Ces!

Bold all the chick flick films you've seen. Total them, etc etc.

How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
Fever Pitch
Sweet Home Alabama
Legally Blonde
Legally Blonde 2: Red, White, and Blonde
Mean Girls
The Hot Chick
My Best Friend's Wedding
The Devil Wears Prada
Step Up
Total: 8

Chocolat
Phantom of the Opera
Moulin Rouge
Return to Me
13 Going on 30
Uptown Girls
Princess Diaries
Princess Diaries 2: The Royal Engagement
Miss Congeniality
Miss Congeniality 2: Armed and Fabulous
Total As of Now: 15

Kate and Leopold
The Prince and Me
The Prince and Me 2: Royal Wedding
A Walk to Remember
Breakfast at Tiffany's
Pretty Woman
When Harry Met Sally
Sleepless in Seattle
Bend it Like Beckham
Bridget Jones Diary
Total As of Now: 23

Bridget Jones Diary: The Edge of Reason
City of Angels
Emma
French Kiss
My Big Fat Greek Wedding
Never Been Kissed
10 Things I Hate About You
She's All That
Notting Hill
Win a Date With Tad Hamilton
Total As of Now: 29

Hope Floats
Dirty Dancing
Dirty Dancing 2: Havana Nights
Ghost
Love Actually
Le Divorce
Bring It On
Bring it on Again
Bring it on: All or Nothing
You've Got Mail
Total As of Now: 36

Pride and Prejudice (new version)
Pride and Prejudice (old version)
Grease
Grease 2
A Cinderella Story
The Lizzie McGuire Movie
The Perfect Man
Clueless
Center Stage
Save the Last Dance
Total As of Now: 44

Save the Last Dance 2
Footloose
The Notebook
Titanic
Elizabethtown
Princess Bride
The Lakehouse
Ever After
Sense and Sensibility
Just Like Heaven
Total As of Now: 51

Chasing Liberty
Little Women
Wimbledon
An Affair to Remember
Something's Gotta Give
Shopgirl
The Object of My Affection
Crossroads
Only You
It Takes Two
Total As of Now: 55

Passport to Paris
Winning London
Holiday in the Sun
Au Pair 1
Au Pair 2
Tristan and Isolde
Sixteen Candles
Pretty in Pink
What A Girl Wants
Raise Your Voice
Total As of Now: 57

Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen
Alex & Emma
Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants
It had to be You
She's the Man
A Very Long Engagement
Run, Lola, Run
Like Water for Chocolate
Amelie
Count of Monte Cristo
Total As of Now: 61

Bread and Tulips
Life is Beautiful
Das Versprechen
Billy Elliot
Sliding Doors
What Women Want
Freaky Friday (new version)
Freaky Friday (old version)
Parent Trap (new version)
Parent Trap (old version)
Total As of Now: 64

Ella Enchanted
One Fine Day
A Walk in the Clouds
Beaches
Strictly Ballroom
Presenting Lily Mars
The Holiday
Much Ado About Nothing
Sabrina (old version)
Sabrina (new version)
Total As of Now: 71

Four Weddings and a Funeral
50 First Dates
Roxie Hart
While You Were Sleeping
Steel Magnolias
Keeping the Faith
Runaway Bride
Best Man in Grass Creek
America's Sweethearts
Mona Lisa Smile
Total As of Now: 75

Stepmom
Something to Talk About
Dying Young
The Way We Were
Stick It
Ice Princess
Raising Helen
Where the Heart Is
Nine Months
About a Boy
Total As of Now: 80

The Wedding Date
Father of the Bride
Father of the Bride Part 2
Anywhere but Here
The Party
Memoirs of a Geisha
Music of the Heart
Pearl Harbor
Must Love Dogs
Two Weeks Notice
Total As of Now: 87

Wicker Park
Harold and Maude
Enough
The First Wives Club
Thelma & Louise
Sleeping With the Enemy
Gone with the Wind
The Wedding Planner
The Wedding Singer
Casablanca
Total As of Now: 90

The English Patient
An Officer and a Gentleman
Say Anything
Roman Holiday
Funny Face
Out of Sight
Maid in Manhattan
Love Potion #9
Can't Hardly Wait
Meet Joe Black
Total As of Now: 94

Legends of the Fall
There's Something About Mary
The American President
Shakespeare in Love
Importance of Being Ernest
Cruel Intentions
Drive Me Crazy
Autumn in New York
Sweet November
The Family Stone
Total As of Now: 98

Serendipity
Picture Perfect
Along Came Polly
Down to You
Someone Like You
The Sweetest Thing
Monster-in-Law
My Fair Lady
Lucky 7
See Jane Date
Total As of Now: 101

This Time Around
Something New
The Diary of a Mad Black Woman
The Sound of Music
Brokeback Mountain
Look Who's Talking
Look Who's Talking Too
Look Who's Talking Now
The Other Sister
The Only Thrill
Total As of Now: 104

Marvin's Room
Baby Boom
Play it Again, Sam
Ice Castles
A League of Their Own
Garden State
Saved!
View From the Top
Music From Another Room
The Man in the Moon
Total As Of Now: 106

Mystic Pizza
Now and Then
How to Deal
Rumor Has it
Riding in Cars With Boys
Head Over Heels
Boys and Girls
Coyote Ugly
The Last Kiss
Home Fries
Total As of Now: 108

The Man From Snowy River
Danny Deckchair
Down With Love
On the Line (eeks)
Laws of Attraction
The Thomas Crown Affair
A Cat on a Hot Tin Roof
Giant
National Velvet
The Bachelor
For Love and War
Total As of Now: 113

Edward Scissorhands
Benny and Joon
Season For Miracles
The Princess and the Warrior (German Flick)
Nickolas Nickleby
Finding Neverland
De-Lovely
Six Days and Seven Nights
Fried Green Tomatoes
Jerry McGuire
Total As of Now: 116

Umm, wow. Thats more than I expected. Oh well, I'm such a sucker for romance movies: Chick flicks, and rom com. :D

And that is the beautful Jennifer Morrison. Gahh, I'm jealous, she look so perfect, lol. Anyways, Felt like sharing this pic, hehe.

And now, I must get ready. *hugs and kisses*

Straight Jacket Fasion

Thu, 31 May 2007 16:32:38 GMT

I'M BACK!!!!!!!!!

It's been over a month since I've been on here. I have so much to catch up on with all my flist, geez. Well, now that school is officially over for the summer break, I now have time to post. Go me...

Since my last post, I had my band banquet which I found out if I made any leadership positions, including Drum Major. Unfortunately I didn't get Drum Major. Instead I got Section Leader of the Saxophones, and Woodwind Captain (which I didn't even put down on my application, lol.). I am not at all disapointed in the positions I got, or the fact that I didn't get Drum Major. The people that got DM: Andy, Alex, and Melynn, will be amazing ones. They work well together, and I know they are going to do a great job. Even though I didn't want Woodwind Captain, I've come to realize that its a really freaking big deal, lol. You can say thats the highest leadership position under DM. :] I hope next year that I get DM. :D

At my band banquet, I also got a surprise award. I seriously was not expecting to get any award, I was hoping for a leadership position and thats all. But my band directors awarded me the Director's Award for Band which is basically given to one of the top musicians. I was shocked, lol. But after all the awards, we were able to dance and enjoy the rest of the night. So I partied with Becky, Mark, and Julie. And gosh, it was so much fun! lol.

And since then, all I did was basically study for my high school exams, get my projects turn in, and practice for my band placement auditions. Ohhhhh, I got my Veneer!!! my permanent one, I got it last week! I actually have a nice smile now, the crooked, effed up tooth is now, non-existent! Woot!

Brevard Community College

College Algebra - A
World Religions - A

YAY! Another 4.0 for me!

Well, next week I am not going to be here. I am leaving for my Double Reed Workshop at Stetson, I won't be back until June 9th. I can't wait! I get to play on my teachers English Horn, and I get to see all my friends. And plus, this camp is just so much fun and an amazing music experience! :]

Then I start my session B Summer BCC classes when I get back. And then off to my Marching Band Leadership Camp up at FSU. YAY!

And waayyy random here, but, the season finale of House was last night!! My shipper heart is aching a little, but I have hope after the little H/C moment at the end. *crosses fingers* I am going to miss my House episodes for a couple of months! AHHH!!! Thank god theirs fanfiction, thats the only thats going to get my through. Season 4 better be better!

Anyways, thats a little update to my life. Which, I know, was oh so freaking boring. My life is far from entertaining, lol.

Hope all is well with all of you! I haven't heard from you guys in forever! *kisses and huggles*

Just a bit about Auditions....

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 01:07:59 GMT

I felt like talking about my Drum Major auditions....

It went pretty damn well. I was stressing out sooooo much the whole morning all the way until by audition. I worked so very hard for this. I spent 3.5 hours after school on Thursday to work with Melynn, Alex on condutcing and fundamentals and Mr.Jackson even helped us on conducting. Then I spent my whole weekend practicing my alto and conducting, and this past Monday I spent an hour at school working on it with Melynn then went back to her house to work on it even more. My arms are seriously about to fall off.

Okay Auditions. Well this is what it consisted of:

Playing my Alto Sax. piece
Playing a scale
Responding to commands
Giving commands
Conducting
An interview

"Wheres her application?" *searching for my papers*
"....I ate it."

I don't know why but that made me crack up during my audition. Thanks Mr. Jackson. The way he said it and his face expression towards Mr. Hudson made me just laugh. It made me feel a little less nervous. Mr.Jackson also pointed out to Mr.Brusett (or however the hell you spell his name) that I played oboe, so i guess that means they know its not my first instrument.

Well I played the piece pretty well, but I don't think my tone quality was that good. Thats what I get for playing an instrument that is not my primary instrument. I've only been playing the Alto Sax. for one year and thats only during Marching season, heh. They had me play G concert scale, ugh, I played it two octaves, and messed up a tiny bit on the top, but at least I tried.

Then Mr. Jackson and Mr. Hudson gave me commands and I followed them. Then I had to forward march for Mr. Jackson twice! The second time I did it, I tripped on my damn jeans! lol. After that I gave commands, which were fine.

I think the conducting was my best spot. Not really sure what to say about that. I think I could have put more face expression in, but other than that it was great.

Then the interview, I basically talked to Mr.Hudson the whole time which was totally fine for me. He had to mention that I was going to be a Junior. He only asked me about 4 questions, and then Mr. Jackson went and had to bring up the whole Alex-Melynn-Me group. He said hes noticed our little "clique" and how we spent our time working together and practicing together which he said that he really liked and it was fine, but that if they got it and I didn't would I still be supportive of them, and I told them I totally would. I don't know but after that little question, I'm not sure if they want us together as a team, hmm....maybe I'm thinking to much.

So that was basically it. I really hope they pick three Drum Majors, and I really hope that two of them are seniors and one junior. I want this SOOOO bad!!! I have to wait two weeks now!!! :/

...and he is so damn cute. I think he almost asked me on a "date" (if that is the right word) to go and see Bowling For Soup with him....but then Ashley came over, so I am not sure where he was getting at, lol.

Anyways I'm off, House is on!!! :D

All that I can't ignore...

Wed, 18 Apr 2007 17:14:19 GMT

'Tis been awhile...I missed you guys! *hugs* :D

Haha, I skipped my College Algebra class today. Not feeling good, already know the material we are covering today, and yeah, wasn't in the mood. So I am here. In the comp lab at BCC. On livejournal. Go me. :)

Nothing really exciting has happened, just the fact that all I've been doing has been school work, and band stuff. We had the Ziti dinner on Fri. not that many people came, which was kind of disapointing, but it was still pretty fun. I performed my piano solo, or at least one movement of it, people loved it. and there was also some other solo performances and jazz band performed. Probably the thing that got me really happy on Fri. was Alex (Lindsey, don't say anything!, lol). He actually complimented me, not just on my piano playing, but on me! He was so cute. I just don't understand whats going on in his head...he's really confusing me and I hate it. Also found out that the piano player in Jazz band, Matt, likes me, haha. And hes a senior which actually really surprised me.

Oki, enough of that. Tomorrow I am staying after school to practice with Alex and Melynn. We are going to practice the piece we have to conduct for Drum Major auditions, teaching and giving commands (which changed sooo much from last year!!!), and we are going to practice our audition piece. You have no idea how extremely nervous I am. I have my auditions for Drum Major/Section leader next Tuesday!! Along with what I just said, I also have an interview to do. There is going to be an unknown band director at our auditions too, just great, it just adds to the stress I already have! I just really REALLY hope I get Drum Major. I want it so bad!

Oh, and I have a competition coming up. My piano teacher wants to be to go and compete in this thing that Space Coast Pops Orchestra is holding. Whoever wins first place gets $500 and the opprotunity to play with the orchestra. So if I win first place, I get to play with the orchestra on piano! So I am going to doit. Hopefully its not bad.

anyways, this was an extremely boring entry. Sorry, but Imma bored. Hope all is well with all of you! *hugs and kisses*

Nothing Worth Fighting for....

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 20:17:17 GMT

OHH!! How about this!

I got a flipping SUPERIOR at State Solo and Ensemble for my oboe solo!!!! Yep. Seriously. I couldn't believe it. I am so excited! It was my first year going and I got my Superior. YAY! *does a happy dance* :D

Okay. Since we had State yesterday, I got to miss the whole day of school. Yeah. Not that fun. I had to get up at 3am, get ready and get my stuff ready and meet in the band room at 4:30am since the bus was supossedly leaving at 5am. Yeaaahhh, that defintely didin't happen. I got to the school at 4:30am like I was supossed to, but the damn bus didn't show up at 5 like it was supossed to. Mr.Hudson called the bus company and they had made a mistake. The guy told the bus driver that he was going to drive Westshore, and Westshore wasn't going to State until later in the day. Meanwhile, we are waiting outside for the bus to show. So the guy said that he was going to call the bus driver and tell him to get ready so he could drive us. We didn't leave until 7:30ish. So the band directors had to call and tell the FBA people if they could please reschedule all our times that were in the morning since we wouldn't be making it. It took us a good three hours to get down to Miami. Geez. We had an extremely long day. We got back at 10:30ish, and then went home. I am sooooooooo wiped out right now. But I still got to do homework. Bleh....

So that is my story about State. Anyways, Spring Break is over, and it sucks. I can't even really say I had a "break". I wish it was summer already.

New Epsidoe of House tonight!!! Hopefully I won't miss it, I have to go to my aunts house its my cousin's 15th birthday. Hehe.

I am falling asleep as I type, so I guess its my cue to go, and that its only 4:13pm. *hugs and kisses*

I don't want to feel anymore for you....

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 04:33:38 GMT

Okay, I know none of you watch House, but I got to vent here.....

Ahhhhhh!!! Last nights episode has got to be the most craziest episode thus far. I honestly don't know what to make of it. Okay, tell me....how can you go from building up one ship to totally throwing it off and adding two others in, it makes no sense! The whole Cameron/Chase and House/Cuddy thing totally came out of nowhere! I wanted to slap Cameron last night. Her behavior was totally....not Cameron like! She went from being so sweet, delicate and ethical Cameron to a total horny-not-caring-what-happens Cameron. Not good. How can you go from sharing an extremely passionate kiss with House to "doing the deed" in a sleep lab, and in a hospital closet with Chase, and say you are over House? Yeah right. Even Chase knows that she is doing it to make him Jealous. Ugh, and the whole House/Cuddy thing totally did not agree with me. I was hoping there would have been more of a reaction out of House when he caught them in the closet, but all he did was smirk, hopefully the whole situation will hit him soon. The only one I loved in this episode was Wilson, but then again how can you not? My Hameron ship is not going good. Right when I thought it was going smoothly, they had to put this in...what are these writers planning? Guh...thank God for the community House_Cameron. /rant

Really sorry for that. Had to let that out. Hehe.

Welll....I went to the mall today to get my outfit for State Solo and ensemble, and also got a new bathing suit because my other one was big on me. *gasp* lol. Umm...not much else has happened, except that I am screwed because of my online course, but what else is new, haha.

I AM GOING TO THE BEACH ON FRIDAY! Hoorah! lol. :)

I know many of you have seen this. But its not gonna hurt seeing it again, right? Its just toooo hilarious. I seriously had tears in my eyes, and I've watched it many times, hehe. Who can turn down the funny Hugh and sandy? :D

And I guess I will post this too. It will make my Hameron shipper heart feel ALOT better. Can you see/feel the passion? hehe.

And I'm alone now, me and all I stood for...

Tue, 27 Mar 2007 18:27:02 GMT

Whoa. Its been over a week since I've updated. Bleh....

Anyways, what has happened? Well, I got my progress report from Bayside! Haha.

Pre-calc - A
English GAPP - A
Wind Ensemble -A
Chemistry Honors - A

Woot! 4.0!! And for my grades I was able to get my Season 1 of House MD. on DVD.!! I watched all 19 episodes these past three days, lol. I know I'm obsessed and my obsession just got bigger, hehe. New Episode of House tonight infact! Yes!!

It sucks that even though I am on Spring Break I still have homework to do, and its all thanks to my stupid online course, which I am three weeks behind thanks to band and college stuff. I should be doing it right now, but ugh, procrastination has got me right now.

Anyways, before Spring Break Mr. Jackson gave us info on Leadership this year. Let me say that it is completely different than last year. We have to sign an application and we have to write an essay. Then we are having leadership classes one week, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. Then we have one week of Section Leader/Captain auditions and then one week of Drum Major auditions. I am not sure when exactly this all starts, but I am a bit nervous and scared, I am not sure what to expect when I go in.

And there is this guy on myspace, named Brian Krough (he goes to Bayside), who has been talking to be the past couple of days, hes really sweet and nice, but I am not sure what to think, if hes interested or not. He has a gf. Whatever.

I don't know what else to type....anyone want to do my online course? hehe.

Ahhhhh!!! Picture spam. Its some pics of me and some of my friend julie and I. Alot of it is randomness, lol.

Hanging out at her house, supossedly doing a project. Hehe.

Best friends! :) We were being silly.

This is my fave. pic of me. :)

I don't know the reason why I took this pic. Haha.

Yep boredom! I like the little heart I drew though, hehe.

okay, done. Must go and try to work on my online course. Hope all is well with all of you! *hugs and kisses*

From the Inside...

Mon, 19 Mar 2007 00:59:51 GMT

*lets out a big sigh of relief* PHEW...............its over, finally. MPA is finally over. We had some problems, but nevermind those, for the rating....we got a freaking EXCELLENT. I got to say I was a little disapointed, we did such a great job (well except for the beginning of Pageant, those darn Clarinets!). But we got straight 2's (excellent). Mr. Hudson was talking to the parents and he said that alot of band directors were calling him saying that we should have gotten a Superior, that made me feel a little better, but w/e, you can't change the judges mind.

I hate that I feel like I am the only one that is optimistic, and I hate feeling like I am the only one trying to make everything work out. I wish people could see the way I see things, and then maybe things would be different. People seriously need to stop being immature and get a grip on life...you can't always get what you want, and you can't have things always going your way, thats not the way it is.

Anyways, after our concert Becky, Chris, Lindsey, me and some other band kids went out to eat at Denny's. That was sooo much funnn!!! I had a great time, it was nice just talking, laughing and hanging out.

Ehh....what else? oh yeah, found out some really depressing news about someone on Saturday. And I can't believe how much it has hit me. I feel so bad for him, yet I want to strangle him and ask him, what the hell is his problem? Why? I partially told him how I felt once, and I was surprised at the repsonse he gave me, heh...I guess that gives him a hint that I care? I feel like talking to him about it, but like that is gonna do anything.

Anyways, I forgot I have College Algebra homework due tomorrow, hope all is well with all of you! *hugs and kisses*

oh and my friends parents recorded the concert, if I get a copy I might upload it on here. But not sure of the quality. :]

Premonition....was Fantastic!

Sat, 17 Mar 2007 16:42:42 GMT

First of all....Happy Birthday Cec! *throws confetti* I do hope you enjoy your birthday and that its a wonderful year for you! *hugs* :D

Oki...so I have a little time to post my comment on the movie Premontion(no spoilers):

I thought the movie was fantastic! Sandy did an amazing job, I think this is one her best performances. She really put alot of emotion in her role and you could really feel it. Julian was pretty good, and the chemistry between him and Sandy was really good too. I was really sucked in and I am telling you I was at the edge of my seat the whole time wondering if she was going to figure out a way to save him. I don't understand why people said the ending sucked, I loved it. It pulled together the whole meaning of the movie (which is really touching). It made me want to cry, haha. While the movie was confusing, you just had to take time to think about it and then everything will make sense. I am not going to say any spoilers for anybody on my journal who wants to the see the movie themselves. But go and see it, its seriously worth the money. I want to see it again!! :]

...and the guy that played Lucifer(Satan) in Constantine is in there! I just thought I'd point that out, hee.

Haha...I asked my mom who had greater chemistry Sandra bullock and Keanu Reeves or Sandra Bullock and Julian McHanon? She said....Julian McHanon. I was like, "WHAT?!?" but then shes like I really don't know, haha. I'd say Keanu but then again I'm biased. All I have to say is that in the scene when she goes into the shower to hug Julian, and they are just holding each other and whatnot, I was wishing it was Keanu, lmao. Oki....sorry for the little spoiler.

Anyways, I have Concert Festival today. I have to be at school at 4pm, and we perform at Satellite at 7:30pm, oh gosh...I really hope we do well. I wll post our rating when I get back.

I'm off to go back to cleaning my music room. *hugs and kisses*

I was wrong, you just couldn't love me....

Thu, 15 Mar 2007 22:28:51 GMT

Thanks to tutoring Adult-Ed today, I finished all my homework, no one today needed any help so I spent two hours doing my homework. Now I have time to type in my journal, which I haven't done in awhile. New layout by the way. Its to satisfy my House/cameron shipper frenzy lately. Its not how I want it too look, I might mess around with the code or if I find a bigger image I might just change it. But I like the change for right now. I missed my LJ. *hugs LJ* :]

I have gotten sooooo many Leadership programs and scholar program information in the mail lately. But one that really stood out to me that I got today was one from an actual doctor in Washington D.C. He was writing to me! I have been nominated to attend the Summer 2007 National Youth Leadership Forum on Medicine and if I go I will be working first hand with doctors and observing what they do, helping out with patients and see surgery being performed. I am one of the 1% of high school students that are presented with this opportunity!! I should be getting more info in the mail in the next coming days, I really hope that I could go. It could really help me with the career path I want to take! I am extremely excited! :D

Oh....and I have been nominated to join the National Honor Society in Bayside. I got my application, I just have to turn it in. I HOPE I am accepted into the society! *crosses fingers*

Anyways...not much has happened. Just School, band, school, lessons oh and some more band has taken over my life. This Saturday is our Concert MPA. I'm excited yet nervous at the same time. I honestly don't know what we will get. Then I have State Solo and Ensemble that I have been practicing like crazy for! I go April 2, at flipping 8:36am for my woodwind choir and 9:36am for my oboe solo. That means I have to meet at the school at 4am to board the bus and head down to Miami. Thats just crazy early....bleh. PILLOW AND iPOD TIME!! Hehe....

Premonition comes out this Friday in theaters, and according to my mom we are going to see the movie....on Friday! YAY! I am oh so happy about that, I haven't "hung out" in a loooonnnggg time and plus I really REALLY want to see that movie. Sandra is just amazing, period! And plus having Julian in the movie is a bonus...but he still is no Keanu, lol. :)

SPRING BREAK IN A WEEK! That means House in a week and couple of days. UGH! Its killing me. Must see it. NOW! And why must the entire season 1 on DVD cost so much money? I want it....really bad.

I'm off....hope all is well with all of you! *hugs and kisses*

I LOVE House!!!

Fri, 09 Mar 2007 01:45:35 GMT

OMG OMG OMG!!! *Squeeing her head off*

House MD. was amazing!!! House and Cameron kissed, finally!!! It seriously made my day watching that show. I've been waiting for them to do that, haha, they so want each other, bad! Well....Cameron had an alterior motive to kiss House, but still, she wouldn't have kissed him as long as she did, and with so much passion. Seeing House's face was priceless, at first he was like, "what are you doing?" and then he just gave in...but my gosh was it HOT!! It was sad though seeing House's face after he found out Cameron was kind of tricking him...aww. Yep, as you can see, I am a House and Cameron shipper! Haha. Its my other one. :) Can't wait till next episode, I must wait three agonzing weeks! Ahhh....

Anyways...FCAT testing is finally over!! It was my last year EVER taking the reading, writing and math. So freaking excited about that. I can't stand FCAT! Next year all I have to take is the FCAT Science, which shouldnt be that bad. Phew....+

I tutored today after school for Adult-Ed. I helped out the math students, and it went pretty well. I helped out for 2 hours, and for it I got extra credit for Pre-Calc. Woot! I might tutor again, I enjoyed it, heh. Wierd...

Omgosh! Our band room changed. Mr. Jackson and Mr. Hudson changed the whole setup. Instead of the band facing the white board, they turned it and its now facing their office. Its so wierd...but there is SO much MORE room. I like it. :)

As I said before I have become obsessed with The Heart Asks Pleasure First by Michael Nyman. I know the first two pages, yay!! Its a really amazing piece, but challenging, I am just surprised that I can actually play it. Didn't think I had what it took to learn it. So here, its the music video of the song. Thought you might like to hear it if you haven't.

And if I sleep just to dream of you...

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 01:14:12 GMT

♥ HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSHUA!!!!! ♥

It would have been my cousins 29th birthday today. My aunt and his brothers went to the cemetery to sing happy birthday to him. I can't believe how much I miss him...I love you Josh!

Anyways,

Its that time again for a.........

Survey!!! I'm bored, its the one day I don't have homework!! Woot!

....and I plus I have become obsessed with playing The Heart Asks Pleasure First by Michael Nyman. I must take a break before my wrist and fingers fall off.

-SAD SECTION-

01. Have you ever really cried your heart out?
Yes, once over something so pathetic, it must have made me look so weak. And when my cousin died.

02. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yep, for the same damn pathetic reason

03. Have you ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
erm...no. I don't really like crying in front of my friends

04. Do you cry when you get an injury?
Nope, I do the exact oppostie, I laugh at myself.

-HAPPY SECTION-

01. Are you a happy person?
Generally...I really have no reason not to wake up and be happy. Unless some something is really bothering me or something happened, but usually when things happen to me I still tend to be happy or optimistic.

02. What can always make you happy?
My friends. My music, either listening to it, or playing piano can cheer me up. And my mom can make me feel better. :)

03. Do you wish you were happier?
At certain times of my life, yes.

04. Is being happy overrated?
Don't think so...do you rather people be in a pissed of mood?

05. Can music make you happy?
Yes...or it can go the other way too, but mostly happy.

-LOVE SECTION-

01. How many times have you had your heart broken?
...once.

02. Anyone besides your friends/family ever said they loved you?
Yes, and that turned out to be a total lie.

03. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
That was my downfall...I did, and truly did mean it.

-RELATIONSHIP SECTION-

01. Are you in a relationship?
nope

02. Are you happy with it?
Ehh...I guess, I mean I do want to be with someone, but right now my life is better off without it.

03. Have a crush on a person?
I think so....I don't know, the guy confuses me.

-HATE SECTION-

01. Who do you actually hate?
I don't hate anyone. I dislike. Hate is a strong word.

02. Have you ever made a hit list?
Noooo

03. Are you a mean bully?
I don't think I am. I'm defintely not like that

04. Do you like George Bush?
Hate him...

01. Are you good looking?
You can decide that

02. Do you wish you could be someone else?
I'd prefer just to be me. No point in acting like someone you're not.

-EVER-
[] ridden in a taxi.
[] jumped a ramp on a bike
[x] been used
[] been fired
[] fired a real gun.
[] been arrested (or handucffed by police).
[] celebrated New Year's in Times Square or Disney World
[] AKA the Human beat box
[] gone on a blind date.
[xxxx- lol. ] had a crush on a teacher
[] celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans.
[] been to Europe.
[] been to Australia
[] been to Hawaii
[x] skipped school.
[] thrown up from drinking
[x] played 'Clue'.
[x] had a sleepover.
[x] gone ice skating.
[] had your tonsils out
[] have/had a TRUCK.
[x] driven a car.
[] totaled a car.
[x] been flashed

-CURRENTLY WEARING-

01. clothes?
Nope, I'm a nudist....Kidding. Of course I am.

02. Shorts?
yep

03. Shoes?
not right now

04. Underwear?
uh-huh

05. Necklace?
haha...nope. Its all tangled up

-HAVE YOU EVER-

01. Hugged someone?
Nope, I am just one unemotional girl. I've hugged many people.

02. Been on the phone/computer until the sun came up?
Thats a really long time.

03. Put a song on repeat for more than an hour?
Yeah, when I am totally obsessed with it and can't get enough of it

-LASTS-

01. Last person you talked to in person?
My mom

02. Last person you talked to online?
Mark.

03 Person you talked to on the phone?
My mom

04. Person you talked to on text?
Brittany

05. Person who made you smile?
Either Julie or Alex

06. Person you messaged on myspace?
Justin

-OTHER-

02. What kind of shampoo do you use?
Sunsilk...omgosh, it smells so good

03. Do you get along with your parents?
Yep.

04. Do you have mental breakdowns?
Not really.

05. Did you ever fake being sick?
Why? Theres no point, its not going to work.

-CURRENT-

01. Current Mood:
Tired

03. Current hair:
Flat straight and loose

04. Current Thing I Ought To Be Doing?
Doing my pre-calc homework.

05. Current windows open?
Livejournal, and myspace. Oh and AIM.

1. Who were you with last night?
My mom

2. What woke you up this morning?
The phone

3. Where are you?
My music room

4. Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
I don't know. I have NRTs tomorrow, and then I have to tutor from 3:30 to 6pm at Adult Ed after school in my teachers classroom.

5. Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
Kissed my parents, and hugged some friends

6. When is the last time you hugged someone?
On my way to band

7. Who is the last person you hugged?
Julie I think

8. When's the last time you cried?
Few minutes ago actually, I was thinking about my cuz.

10. Ever thrown up in public?
At Disney World

12. What's on your mind RIGHT NOW?
Everything from NRTs, to college, to band, online course, and some crap thats going on in my family

-The FUTURE -

13. Would you take a bullet for anyone?
Not just anyone

14. Where would you like to live?
New York, or Spain

15. What kind of home would you like?
Something just to call me home.

16. What do you want be when you grow up?
Cardiothoracic surgeon.

17. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
University of South Florida

ON MYSPACE -

20. Who is your number one?
Amy

22. How many people have you kissed in your top friends?
My family members

23. Who was the last person that left you a comment?
Rachael. I really cool girl who I met from GA

24. Are you good friends with this person?
I don't know her in person, but I guess for talking over internet

25. How often do you log in to myspace?
Basically everyday.

-IN GENERAL -

27. Do you like candy necklaces?
Ew, no.

28. When's the last time you fell or ran into something?
When I was leaving band practice. I ran into a stupid chair

30. Do you still go trick or treating?
Heck yes

31. What was the last thing you ate?
I just finished eating a glazed donut, havent had one in a loonnngg time

32. Are you a fast typer?
Basically.

33. About how many people have you liked?
Not that many. Since the beginning og Middle school to now where I am in high school, about 3, lol. I was seriously crushing on them.

34. What are you doing this weekend?
Doing my journal entried for my World Religion class, online course.

35. Whats your favorite type of soda?
Moutain Dew and Dr. Pepper

36. Have you ever moved?
Yeah

37. Have you ever won an award?
Alot

38. How many times have you been in love?
Didn't you already ask this question? uh, once

39. What do you want to do right now?
I dont know. Play piano, watch tv, i dont know

40. Are you listening to music right now?
Yep!! Linkin Park!!! Gosh, I miss them! They are coming out with a new album! :)

41. Are you in a room with someone?
nope, all by myself!

42. Whats a word or phrase that you love?
Your face, all my friends say that for some reason

43. How long until your birthday?
8 months and 17 days, haha.

44. When were you the saddest in your whole life?
Summer before my ninth grade year...

45. What time is it now?
8:04pm

46. Do you think anyone will repost to this?
No clue

47. What makes you pissed off?
Stupid people, people who cause problems and complain excessively, some people in band, and other crap, heh.

48. Have you ever had a song written about you?
Well someone wrote a piano song dedicated to me, and its titled was my first name, so I guess so. But you can say that totally didnt mean anything either

49. What song makes you cry?
none really, some can make me sad, one can make really sad because of what it reminds me of.

50. What songs make you happy?
Alot

51. What do you like to listen to before you go to bed?
Any of my music

52. Do you have a job?
No.

53. What does Your CD player have in it right now?
Haha, I dont use my CD player, but I think it has Enya in it.

54. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
Purple

[Height:]
5'7

[Hair:]
Brownish with the red color fading

[Eye Color:]
Brown to light brownish

[Tattoos:]
N/A.

[Wearing right now?]
Clothes.

[Have a bad habit?]
Shaking my legs uncontrollably.

2006:
[ ] Sucked for me
[ ] Was awesome.
[x] Was ok. It was awesome sometimes, then sucked sometimes.

2006 I...
[] Dumped someone.
[xx more liked glazed, lol] Dyed my hair
[] Failed a class
[] Had love at first sight
[] Snuck out of my house
[] Stayed up all night
[x] Cried because I missed someone
[] Missed curfew*dont have one*
[] kissed someone who I reget doin it
[x] Made honor roll
[x] Danced crazily with my friends all night
[x] Gained confidence
[] Lost a friend(s)
[x] Gained new friends
[] Changed looks

2007 I want to...
[x more like mantain my good grades] Get better grades
[] Care less about how I look
[] Care more about how I look
[x] Be crazier...
[] Keep my resolution
[x] Be more of myself around people
[xxx] Take life better and not think about the past

geez....that was long.

Somewhere I Belong

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 01:30:09 GMT

So....I am here again. LJ has become like my personal psychological counselor or helper, or whatever you call it. It helps expose of stress and mishaps in my life, thank you! And its here to also express my happy moments! lol. Oki, sorry for that.

Anyways....

What is so wrong with wearing make-up? or more specific, eyeliner? I don't get it. Wearing eyeliner or make up of any sort in my family is like a sin. I am now band from wearing eyeliner to school, or outside, only on special events can I wear it. My mom says that I have to stop it becuase she doesnt approve of it, and that its going to mess up my face. She also says that if I keep wearing it I am not going to look good in it later on when I want to wear it for something special. The only reason why I wear it is because I think I look better with it on, I dont think I look pretty, and with that I feel....prettier? I guess you can say. I don't know. I'm a little mad about that. And I know, what a stupid little thing I'm complaining about. I feel so childish complaining about that whole thing....

So my best friend heard from Clay (my boyfriend at one point in my life)....

Its nice to know that he can get with someone so fast after moving and breaking up with someone. He sure gets over it quickly. He leaves FL, moves to NC. finds another girl in less than a month being there, and gets with her. Then moves again, finds another girl in less than a month and gets with her! How come guys get over things so easily while girls take so long to get over one thing? I hate it...
Even after two years, I still can't forget him and about him leaving and crap. I never told him how I really felt, and I think thats why I can't just forget him. Its constantly eating at the back of my mind, and I really want it to stop. He is coming down this summer...I want to see him and then I don't. I think it would be better if we didnt see each other, I don't know what I could say to him anyways. I'd probably end of slapping after all thats happened.

Okay, forget about that depressing part of my entry. I finally got my piano book from the movie The Piano. I will finally be able to learn one of my favorite piano pieces, The Heart Asks Pleasure First. Yay! *jumps up and down*

I'm pretty happy that BCC spring break is the same time as Baysides, that means one week of no work and total relaxation, I really need it. I'm going to the beach! Woot woot!

Oh, and I am so seeing Premonition when it comes out. I am really looking forward to it!

Alrighty, I'm off, I have mid-terms to study for!

It's true, we're all a little insane...

Fri, 02 Mar 2007 23:15:03 GMT

*SCREAMS* *rubs face*

....okay, sorry for my momentary outburst of insanity. I think I am going to go insane, seriously...I badly need a break from all my damn schoolwork. College is getting a little overwhelming, I am a little behind on my online course (over a month due for my oral and monthly call), I hate highschool, and there is so much going on now in band since we have festival in two weeks. Arg...I need time to breathe. Or am I just making a big deal out of things? I dont know...I think my mom thinks I am. Whatever.

So anyways, we had Orchestra MPA this past weekend. Our performance was amazing. But unfortunately we got an overall Excellent. We got a Superior in sight-reading though, hehe. I was a little dissapointed, I really thought we were going to get a Superior overall, but the judges were insanely tough this year, they even supossedly gave Satellite an Excellent, and they are like one of the top music programs in Brevard. But nonetheless, I was proud of our Symphonic Orchestra.

So then this past Wed. I had pre-fest at Eau Gallie for Concert MPA. We perform and the band directors (and some other music ppl) who are listening in the back give us comments to tell us what to improve on by the time of festival. Our performace was sooo good! I didn't like my solo much, but then again I am never satisfied with how I sound. The people who were listening said that it was pretty. We heard just one recording of one of the songs we performed and I was amazed at how we sounded, lol. Hopefully Monday we get to hear the rest. Today we also recieved the comments the people left on us. Of course the freaking oboe had to be singled out in the last song we played. They said I was going flat in my low register notes, haha, and that I thought I was pretty in tune. Its crazy the kind of ears these ppl have on them, lol. But anyways, I am kind of nervous for MPA, I really hope we get a Superior. Our band directors and us deserve it.

Ugh...and I have a mid term on Tuesday, I think I am gonna fail it. We covered so much in World Religions, bleh. Okay, so I am gonna go and work on my online course, I am boring you guys with my not-so-entertaining life.

Oh but if you like the show House, look under the cut! :) I love House and Hugh Laurie is amazing! Hehe.

I feel like a horrible House fan. I haven't been able to catch the new episodes, only some. I really REALLY want to buy the seasons on DVD. But anyways, I was searching on Youtube, and found these hilarious bloopers, maybe you've seen them maybe you haven't, but I thought I share. They are from the 2nd season. Enjoy. :)